Sunday, December 10, 2006

Driving Back

I've been meaning to post this up for quite a while,but never got around to doing it.So,here it is...finally...

The drive from Klang up to Kuala Kangsar was sublime...I mean it.I mean,yeah,it was just a drive,but the view was breath-taking.We left at around 6 in the morning.Just my dad,me,my younger sister and brother.I took the passenger seat at the front beside my dad,while the other two took the seats behind us.And now,I shall begin describing its ultimate awesomeness...

As we rolled out onto the highway,surrounded by faraway mountains and greenery,I was captivated by the sky.Yeah,I know you're probably thinking,'First the moon,now the sky'.Haha.Anyway,towards my left I could see nothing but black,but straight ahead I could see the colours starting to form.The darkest purple you've ever seen,slowly turning into a dark blue,and then moving on to a light blue.When I turned my head towards my right,I was astounded.Far across the horizon,dawn was breaking.I'd never imagined dawn would come in a variety of colours.And it wasn't just me,because the colours stayed until about halfway through the journey.It was the colours of the rainbow,yet no rainbow.I could see the colours starting with a reddish tint at the horizon,and slightly higher up came orange,and then a bright yellow,followed soon enough by light green,fading smoothly into dark green,and finally,joining forces with the blues,and purples that I had seen earlier.It was like a remarkably abstract piece of art.I watched the whole thing in awe.And to think,I woke up in the morning with no inkling that I would be able to see the amazing tranformation of dark turn into light.
I watched the same view for a long while,until the sun slowly began to rise,taking most of the colours away,leaving only a whitish sky.But even the white sky had its captivating element.In phase two of this proccess,I began to notice the purple(yes,PURPLE!) clouds that were peppered with peach floating above me.Yes,purple clouds peppered with a peachy orange would describe it perfectly.
Phase three was when everything would calm down and the many colours would leave,and the sun would rise completely into the sky and soothe everything.This eventually left the clear blue sky with the puffy white clouds that we see so many times in our daily lives,without having a clue about the amazing process it takes to reach this stage.
*Sigh*...
That's all I wanted to say.
:)
Buh-bye now...

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Mesmerizing Beauty...

I watched the moon last night.I spent a total of 30 minutes standing at the window facing the back of my house,avidly watching the moon and the dark clouds that flew over it.I always knew the moon was beautiful,but never had I imagined that it would ever be that mesmerizingly beautiful.
You know what the funny thing is?I was so into it,that I could feel every particle of my body concentrating on that one silvery orb floating in that black endless sky.I actually wanted to reach out and touch it.I know it sounds like something a small child would say,but that's how I felt.I had the sudden urge to begin climbing the rolling hills covered with tombstones that were behind my house.The urge was so strong,I could feel it pulsating within me.I could even pinpoint the exact spot I needed to reach to be able to stand on tiptoe and touch the moon.In my mind,I already had my course planned out.A map to know which path to take.It was like nothing I've ever felt before...
Right this very moment,all I want to do is to lie down on the green grass and stare at the moon.But considering the fact that all there is behind my house is an ancient Chinese cemetery,I know that I would never dare do it alone.If someone's willing to come with me,I might actually try it someday.Yes.I'm that desperate.
And I also realised a few things about myself.One of it being the fact that I am easily mesmerized and highly captivated by beauty.Like the beautiful moon.The stars.The clouds.The sea.Sun.Sky.Horizon.Sand.Mountains.Snow.The trees.Dawn.Dusk.I feel like I'm in love.In love with beauty.The beautiful wonders of nature.I tend to lose myself in it.And I'm also in love with beautiful people.I'm not talking about how a guy or girl(P.S.-I'm not a lesbian and never will be.) looks.Not outer beauty.But inner beauty.Beautiful souls.Now I've just reminded myself of Jesse Mccartney's song 'Beautiful Soul'.It's a beautiful song,that one is.Beautiful souls.Beautiful personalities.Inner depth.Yes...I'm in love with a person's depth.Just like my own.That's one of the few things that I love about myself.My inner depth.My empathy.My love for life.My...amazing ability to write...which I thank God for,because,without it,I would never have been able to express myself in such a complete way if it weren't for the words that have already evolutionised and coexisted for centuries.
Haha.I know I like to move my focus all around.I like taking a story from all angles.It gives me the freedom to think.To expand my horizons.My vast and wide open imagination.I've diverted this post from the moon,to how I felt,to beauty,to beautiful souls,and to what I love about myself.And now I shall take us back to the beginning in a conclusion for everything I had to say about the moon...

All I have to say,is that I can always dream can't I?So,be one of my dreams it shall.Someday,soon,I hope,I shall take some time off to lie back and relax under the dark sky,glitering stars,and of course,the star of this entry,the beautiful,one and only....moon.
:)
I feel at peace now.Well,almost.Except for the fact that my mum is screaming at me to get to bed.
Well,so long and goodnight,then.:)

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Falling For You/Love Me Too?

This is another song I wrote.I'd probably just rate it as average,but all writers usually critic their work more than is neccessary.So I'll just let you be the judge.This one I wrote about a month and a half ago.And I'd like to shout out a very special thanks to the person who inspired this song.I haven't really though much about the title but it'll probably either be 'Love Me Too' or 'Falling For You'.If you have any suggestions on the title or how to improve the song,go ahead and voice out your thoughts.So,here it is...

[Verse 1]
From the way you make me smile,
Everytime I look into your eyes,
To the way I always sigh,
Everytime I hear your voice...

[Pre-chorus 1]
I like you,
I really do,
And I swear..that,
This is true...

[Chorus]
I love you,
Oh,baby,I do,
I can't help it,
You're just too good to be true..
I'm..falling for you,
Wanna call you my boo,
I just want to you to let me know...
If you love me too..-ooh-ooh...

[Verse 2]
I know a place where you and I,
Can live to-gether and for-ever,
Ha-ppi-ly side by side,
I know..it'll be like heaven..
But now it's back to earth for me,
We need to pause the fantasy,
Now that there's no more make believe,
I need to focus on reality..

[Pre-chorus 2]
I need you,
I really do..
Swirling in my heart..
And mind too...

[Chorus]
I love you,
Oh,baby,I do,
I can't help it,
You're just too good to be true..
I'm..falling for you,
Wanna call you my boo,
I just want to you to let me know...
If you love me too..-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh...

[Bridge]
Everytime..I see your face..
I want your lips to touch mine..just one tae-aste....
But I can't..bring..myself to tell you..
How I really feel..about you.......

[The Last Part...a.k.a. The Ending]
I'm FAA-ling for you...
I SWEAR that it's true....
I'm falling for you,
Wanna call you my boo,
I just want you to let me know-ooh....
I love you,
Oh,baby,I do,
I can't help it,
You're just too good to be true..
I'm falling for you,
Wanna call you my boo,
I just want you to let me know-oh..
If you..
Love..
Me..
Too....
If you..love..me too....
.....
If you love me too.


That was it.So,what d'you think?I really enjoyed it.Typing it out here while singing it made me remember how much I like it.But it made me feel kinda depressed.I'm not sure why..Maybe because that was how I felt when I wrote it.I guess I wouldn't give it an average after all...


I think it was really good. : )
Do you?



-Lavinia-
Or as Fera calls me...:)
-Lala-

P.S.-Leave comments,people!All comments will be highly appreciated and deeply loved!XD

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

I Don't Like How I Look

I don't really like the way I look.Wait-I don't like the way I look.Fullstop.I know it may be a weird thing to say(or not),but...I just don't feel comfortable trying to fit in my skin.It's like a t-shirt that's two sizes smaller than it's supposed to be,and that's saying a lot,because I can practically fit into anything.I feel...as if...my face is not how I want it to look.I know a lot of people feel that way,but with me,it's different.Inside,I'm this tres deep person who comes up with really touching and thoughtful stuff,especially poems filled with pain,empathy,and emotion.But on the outside...I don't know.I just feel that it doesn't potray...ME.It's not ME.I'm not ME.I'm always self-consious.When I go out,that is.At home I obviously don't really give a shit about how I look because I know that my family have known me my whole life and they don't give a shit either.And with my mates,well,it's cool.But when it's strangers and outsiders,haha...I care.I care about the impression I give.No one wants to give a bad impression.Sometimes,I just act like I don't give a shit when I actually do.I'm twisted that way.Correction-in many ways...I feel mixed up.I look like a small,kiddy-like,(some people even go to the extent of calling me "cute") girl,but my personality,thoughts,and perspective...well...they're just really deep.Anyway,I don't like how I look.I look weird.And I am so not comfortable with how I look,as you may have obviously figured out.It's hard to explain.But I think I tried my best to do so in the very best manner possible.:)Sigh.Oh wells.Tomorrow's another day.Okay,now I don't know what I'm saying.Okies.That's it for now.I may continue this post later by editing it...

But for now...

Byes!

-Lavinia-

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Another song...

Here's another one I wrote...I think it was the first one I wrote.I really like it.So,here it is...enjoy.

-No Title Yet-

Cause you,
You didn't dare,
You couldn't care,
All you did was sit and stare.
Cause you,
Held me real tight,
Kissed me goodnight,
Yet it didn't feel right.
You touched my face,
Started to praise,
But it was like a daze,
I was only like your-latest/a-temporary craze...

You...you...you didn't love me,
No,you...you...you wouldn't hug me,
You...you didn't care for me,
Weren't there for me,
But now it makes sense to me,
And I can't believe you lied to me,
And you cried to me,
Said you'd die for me,
But now I see,
You're wearing a disguise,
All I want to say is goodbye...
Good...bye....
Goodbye,Goodbye,Good-bye.......
...and Goodbye.


Yup...that's it so far..I'll update it later when I continue.Okay.Once again,comments highly appreciated.Please comment.:)

Please and thank you!

-Lavinia-

An Untitled Song...

Hey,everyone...I've been TRYING to write songs recently and I think that this one "song" I wrote is pretty good.Well,I liked it.Its the longest "song" I've written so far and its not even done yet.Comment if you must...Wait...On the second thought,please DO comment...it might be useful to me....in some way or other...so,read on,people...read on...

-Untitled-

[Verse 1]
It was all wrong,
Nothing went right at all,
Here's a new song,
So listen as I give you a call,
Let's just get along,
Get rid of this invisible wall,
(Make it through,
Just like we used to...do)
It was all true,
It was very clear for you to see,
That I loved you,
And that I really wanted to be,
With you,
And together with me,We'll,
(Make it through,
Just like we used to...do)

[Pre-Chorus]
Everytime you pass me by,
You leave me here to cry...
...why?!

[Chorus]
Let's,*I haven't figured out the few words to put here*,
Don't leave me lying here,
(To deal with) the heartache and the tears.
Let's,make it up tonight,
Everything will be alright,
Everything will be just fine...
Tonight.

[Verse 2]
Dancing in the moonlight,
Watching the clouds pass by,
Every now and then,
Letting out a sigh,
Feeling like I wanna die,
I can't help but cry,
(Will we make it through,
Just like we used to...do)



That's it...so far...So,what do you think of it?Please comment.I seriously need to know how good or bad it is.Just say whatever you feel like saying about it.Good or bad.I can accept it,don't worry.Haha.LOL.Okies then.Please comment.Your comments will all be read through one by one by the one and only Lavinia and will all be highly appreciated.Please and thank you!

-Lavinia-

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

...My Reflections On DEATH...

Here's something I wrote while thinking about...well,death,obviously...I think it may be a little boring.But,that's just how it is.It's my reflections on death.Read and let your mind ponder as well...

-Death-

Death,
What is death?
Is it just a period of time when your soul and spirit leaves your body, wandering in search of another body to occupy?
Or does your soul, spirit, and body just fall into eternal darkness, never to be used again?
Or does it venture further, a step higher, into heaven or hell, where it remains, immortal?
No one knows.
For the ones who have the answers are no longer with us to explain the proper facts.
……or are they?
Are we just too blind to see them?
Have the scientific facts of life blinded us so badly that we refuse to notice even the slightest out-of-the-ordinary happenings?
Are there spirits of our loved ones surrounding us in warm embrace to protect us from unknown dangers at this very moment?
Once again, no one knows.
There is no way of finding out for sure what is fact and what is not when it is death that is being questioned.
The only way to understand it fully would be to experience it for ourselves, leaving our family, friends, and body behind in the process and unable to communicate with the rest of the world we once used to know, journeying into an entirely different dimension as we unravel one of the greatest mysteries of all time.
Who knows?
Death could be a fun-filled wonderland,
Or it could be a dooms-day hellhole.
In my opinion, it’s about what you believe that matters,
And not what has been scientifically proven.
As for me, I believe that death is an opening to many great, unknown possibilities.
I guess some mysteries are just meant to remain a mystery...forever...



So,how was it?Feel free to leave comments.It's really...wordy(???) and...well...expressive?Okay.I'm going to stop now and let you comment instead.I hope you liked it.
Bye!:)

Peace Out...(V2)

Hey,everyone...I once wrote this poem as long as 12 verses about peace.And then I lost the damned paper.So I wrote I shortened version from the fragments that I could remember to send for a competition in school.And a few months after that I found the original poem again.And then now I've gone and lost it again.It's a twisted story.Conclusion : I've lost the original version,so here's the shortened one that's no where as good as the original.Enjoy.

-Peace-

Peace is not a dream to be,
No matter how it may seem to me,
I skip happily through meadows green,
Singing softly to the wind.

Without a care in the world,
With dolls and toys in a heap,
While somewhere else in the world,
There are children with no beds in which to sleep.

Not knowing where their next meal would come from,
Or when the next bomb would fall,
What wrong have these children done,
To suffer these atrocities caused by man.

I would like to see children rock to the beat of lively music,not rocked by bombs,
I would like to see people shocked by kindness,not shocked by cruelty,
You and I can make a difference,
Let us begin the journey towards making peace,not a mere dream anymore,but reality.



That one was very simple,so I'm not exactly expecting any raving comments from you people,but I just felt like posting it.So I did.