I Don't Like How I Look

I don't really like the way I look.Wait-I don't like the way I look.Fullstop.I know it may be a weird thing to say(or not),but...I just don't feel comfortable trying to fit in my skin.It's like a t-shirt that's two sizes smaller than it's supposed to be,and that's saying a lot,because I can practically fit into anything.I feel...as if...my face is not how I want it to look.I know a lot of people feel that way,but with me,it's different.Inside,I'm this tres deep person who comes up with really touching and thoughtful stuff,especially poems filled with pain,empathy,and emotion.But on the outside...I don't know.I just feel that it doesn't potray...ME.It's not ME.I'm not ME.I'm always self-consious.When I go out,that is.At home I obviously don't really give a shit about how I look because I know that my family have known me my whole life and they don't give a shit either.And with my mates,well,it's cool.But when it's strangers and outsiders,haha...I care.I care about the impression I give.No one wants to give a bad impression.Sometimes,I just act like I don't give a shit when I actually do.I'm twisted that way.Correction-in many ways...I feel mixed up.I look like a small,kiddy-like,(some people even go to the extent of calling me "cute") girl,but my personality,thoughts,and perspective...well...they're just really deep.Anyway,I don't like how I look.I look weird.And I am so not comfortable with how I look,as you may have obviously figured out.It's hard to explain.But I think I tried my best to do so in the very best manner possible.:)Sigh.Oh wells.Tomorrow's another day.Okay,now I don't know what I'm saying.Okies.That's it for now.I may continue this post later by editing it...

But for now...

Byes!

-Lavinia-

Another song...

Here's another one I wrote...I think it was the first one I wrote.I really like it.So,here it is...enjoy.

-No Title Yet-

Cause you,
You didn't dare,
You couldn't care,
All you did was sit and stare.
Cause you,
Held me real tight,
Kissed me goodnight,
Yet it didn't feel right.
You touched my face,
Started to praise,
But it was like a daze,
I was only like your-latest/a-temporary craze...

You...you...you didn't love me,
No,you...you...you wouldn't hug me,
You...you didn't care for me,
Weren't there for me,
But now it makes sense to me,
And I can't believe you lied to me,
And you cried to me,
Said you'd die for me,
But now I see,
You're wearing a disguise,
All I want to say is goodbye...
Good...bye....
Goodbye,Goodbye,Good-bye.......
...and Goodbye.


Yup...that's it so far..I'll update it later when I continue.Okay.Once again,comments highly appreciated.Please comment.:)

Please and thank you!

-Lavinia-

An Untitled Song...

Hey,everyone...I've been TRYING to write songs recently and I think that this one "song" I wrote is pretty good.Well,I liked it.Its the longest "song" I've written so far and its not even done yet.Comment if you must...Wait...On the second thought,please DO comment...it might be useful to me....in some way or other...so,read on,people...read on...

-Untitled-

[Verse 1]
It was all wrong,
Nothing went right at all,
Here's a new song,
So listen as I give you a call,
Let's just get along,
Get rid of this invisible wall,
(Make it through,
Just like we used to...do)
It was all true,
It was very clear for you to see,
That I loved you,
And that I really wanted to be,
With you,
And together with me,We'll,
(Make it through,
Just like we used to...do)

[Pre-Chorus]
Everytime you pass me by,
You leave me here to cry...
...why?!

[Chorus]
Let's,*I haven't figured out the few words to put here*,
Don't leave me lying here,
(To deal with) the heartache and the tears.
Let's,make it up tonight,
Everything will be alright,
Everything will be just fine...
Tonight.

[Verse 2]
Dancing in the moonlight,
Watching the clouds pass by,
Every now and then,
Letting out a sigh,
Feeling like I wanna die,
I can't help but cry,
(Will we make it through,
Just like we used to...do)



That's it...so far...So,what do you think of it?Please comment.I seriously need to know how good or bad it is.Just say whatever you feel like saying about it.Good or bad.I can accept it,don't worry.Haha.LOL.Okies then.Please comment.Your comments will all be read through one by one by the one and only Lavinia and will all be highly appreciated.Please and thank you!

-Lavinia-

...My Reflections On DEATH...

Here's something I wrote while thinking about...well,death,obviously...I think it may be a little boring.But,that's just how it is.It's my reflections on death.Read and let your mind ponder as well...

-Death-

Death,
What is death?
Is it just a period of time when your soul and spirit leaves your body, wandering in search of another body to occupy?
Or does your soul, spirit, and body just fall into eternal darkness, never to be used again?
Or does it venture further, a step higher, into heaven or hell, where it remains, immortal?
No one knows.
For the ones who have the answers are no longer with us to explain the proper facts.
……or are they?
Are we just too blind to see them?
Have the scientific facts of life blinded us so badly that we refuse to notice even the slightest out-of-the-ordinary happenings?
Are there spirits of our loved ones surrounding us in warm embrace to protect us from unknown dangers at this very moment?
Once again, no one knows.
There is no way of finding out for sure what is fact and what is not when it is death that is being questioned.
The only way to understand it fully would be to experience it for ourselves, leaving our family, friends, and body behind in the process and unable to communicate with the rest of the world we once used to know, journeying into an entirely different dimension as we unravel one of the greatest mysteries of all time.
Who knows?
Death could be a fun-filled wonderland,
Or it could be a dooms-day hellhole.
In my opinion, it’s about what you believe that matters,
And not what has been scientifically proven.
As for me, I believe that death is an opening to many great, unknown possibilities.
I guess some mysteries are just meant to remain a mystery...forever...


So,how was it?Feel free to leave comments.It's really...wordy(???) and...well...expressive?Okay.I'm going to stop now and let you comment instead.I hope you liked it.
Bye!:)

Peace Out...(V2)

Hey,everyone...I once wrote this poem as long as 12 verses about peace.And then I lost the damned paper.So I wrote I shortened version from the fragments that I could remember to send for a competition in school.And a few months after that I found the original poem again.And then now I've gone and lost it again.It's a twisted story.Conclusion : I've lost the original version,so here's the shortened one that's no where as good as the original.Enjoy.

-Peace-

Peace is not a dream to be,
No matter how it may seem to me,
I skip happily through meadows green,
Singing softly to the wind.

Without a care in the world,
With dolls and toys in a heap,
While somewhere else in the world,
There are children with no beds in which to sleep.

Not knowing where their next meal would come from,
Or when the next bomb would fall,
What wrong have these children done,
To suffer these atrocities caused by man.

I would like to see children rock to the beat of lively music,not rocked by bombs,
I would like to see people shocked by kindness,not shocked by cruelty,
You and I can make a difference,
Let us begin the journey towards making peace,not a mere dream anymore,but reality.


That one was very simple,so I'm not exactly expecting any raving comments from you people,but I just felt like posting it.So I did.