Flying High

I just realised something else.

I would love to become an airline pilot.
Lol.
I like the whole technicality of it. :D

But,
being an airline pilot would mean I'd have to be responsible for lots of lives.

And I'm trying to avoid any job that would leave me responsible for people's lives.
(E.g. doctor, ... can't think of anymore atm. =_=)

I wouldn't be able to stand killing anyone.
Ahaha.
Even indirectly.
: \
If you've read the post 'Crash and Burn', you'd probably know why.
Heh.
I feel too much.
Eyeah.
Like, I think too much about the effects of such a disaster happening.
I think about the feelings of others.
And crap.
I care goddammit.

-.-

Care way too much, probably.


Anyway,
it would so awesome to be an airline pilot.
8D
The rarity of a female airline pilot enthralls me.

Over coffee :
Person #1 : Soo...what company are you working with?
Me : Qatar Airways. (or Malaysian Airlines la, fine. =_=)
Person #1 : As a stewardess? :D
Me : Haha...no, I'm not tall enough. =) I'm a pilot.
Person #1 : ... :O.

Hahaha.
Random siot.
XD

Which is why,
I started thinking of other occupations related to the field.
AIRCRAFT ENGINEER.
If such an occupation exists lar.
Heh.
Does it?
o_O
I think it does.

But it's not as awesome as AIRLINE PILOT. D:
I want to be an airline pilot!
>.<
*Pouts*

Better judgement is against it.
-_-
Plus what if you die? Like, the plane gets hijacked by terrorists or something and you get shot? Or if the plane just crashes?
Well, I'm not afraid of dying, so what? If the plane gets hijacked, then I'd rather the terrorists kill me than kill the passengers. Or my co-pilot. And if the plane crashes, then, well. I die. :) But before that, I'll make sure to maintain my cool and strategize and be logical and do everything within my power to land the plane safely/get everyone offboard safely before the plane hits ground/water(by using parachutes/inflatable rafts). 8D
Hahaha...'noble' konon. XD Want to save the others by sacrificing yourself...pffttt. >.<
LOL. It's not like that lar! =P Reaaally. I just don't mind dying, that's all. I'm not afraid. End. Shit happens. We should never expect too much. :\ It's just not something that can be helped. It happens...and whenever it does, then, well, I'd rather people not mourn. Cause believe me, no matter how I die, the moments before, I'd still be content. And hopefully, the people I leave behind will know me enough to know that. (a.k.a. have read my blog. :P)
-_- It's a bit stupid to expect people not to mourn, right? Sheesh. -_- Your family wouldn't be able to take it. I can just imagine your siblings and parents lives after your death...how awkward it would be. How fragile...like thinly spun glass just waiting to be broken. Or a runaway train just on the brink of derailing...

Um...I shall stop there. :/
It's enough emoness.
The rest shall stay in my twisted head.
Heh.

(Oh, I just remembered 'aircraft engineering'. XD It exists! Lol.)

:D

This was a ... an. Interesting post. :\
To write.
Haha.
It was weird.
And just so you know, I may sound differently in different posts.
I'm going to experiment with my blogging styles. ;D
So how I sound(my voice/tone) will depend on my mood, my activities of the day, my level of randomness.
Kays?
Kays.
8)

Good.

Tata nows.
Lol.
I never say tata.
:D
...and thank god for that.
Neways,
BYEE.

:)

- Lavinia.

P.S. - I don't think I'll become an aircraft engineer. :\ We shall see...

P.P.S. - Yes, coloured font is nifty. Hahaha. And noticed how it's all in red or green? Hah. Well, MERRY late CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE! :D Doesn't matter if you celebrate or not, cause I don't. But it's festive.
I like festive. *Nodnod*.
...okay, not really. -_-
XD

P.P.P.S. - Good luck to all students who sat for PMR. Hah. Results tomorrow. :P wait, I mean, today. In 8 hours time. :)

P.P.P.P.S. - It's my 9 year old brother's birthday today too, so, although he won't read this...
Happy Birthday, Pravin! ;D
Oh, and Kaysha too. *Nodnod* 8D

P.P.P.P.P.S. - And just to make it to 5 P.s, I wonder if anyone will read this... :\
Lol. ;D

P.P.P.P.P.P.S. - (Aw man, 6 P.s. -_-) Yess, the voice inside my head likes to talk to me when I'm not listening.
o.o
Sssh.
...that didn't make any sense. Lol. =P

Edit 1 : Blogger is being retarded. My font sizes are all messed. =.=

I just realised something.
Maybe I should ramble here instead of rambling to my friends(e.g. Shi Yea. ) in convos on MSN.
O_O

*Sudden realisation*
:P

Neways...hmm. What.

Well, all I was planning on doing in this post is posting random song lyrics. Mmhmm. Like the ones I've been rambling about to Shi Yea. And Krisna. And and...uhm. Yes.

:
Hmm.

Me shall resume this post later once I've figured out how to colorify my blog.
8D

LOL.

- Lavinia.

Revival

This blog's been dead for some time now, hasn't it?
Mm...a very long time, indeed. : l
I'm thinking of blogging again. Maybe.
Well, I could try.
And waste my time.
Yes, it would definitely be a waste of time.
But.
Howels.
It's not like I've got anything better to do anyways. : l
*Ssssh. Don't mention studying.* :D

Okies then.
Thus begins my attempt to BLOG.
8D

Byee now.

- Lavinia.

Lies, Facades, and Masquerades.

It's all lies, isn't it?

All of it.

Masks we put on like disguises. A different one for each occasion.

Nothing seems real anymore.

We're all running around in circles.

Going nowhere.

Back and forth within our own minds.

Trying to figure out who we are.

But we never will.

You can never just be one person.

You are people. You have a different mask for the different societies you mix with.

And it's all a lie.

None of it is real.

But in the end none of it really matters.

We'll all be ashes and dust churning in the wind someday.


- Lavinia.

...as if the world was burning and burning down.

Ever felt like your whole world was crumbling into a million tiny pieces in front of your eyes? Like your entire soul is being ripped out of you leaving nothing but the empty void you long for someone to fill? How the strings are torn, the ties severed, and the blood drips down slowly? And then all that’s left is the silence…

- Lavinia.